A good in-between for this ‘the in-betweens’.
I picked up Timothy Snyder’s tiny book-manifesto-lessons – On Tyranny: On Twenty Lessons from the Twentieth Century – on a date’s recommendation some moons ago. Following are some words from the book, not in any particular order:
Any election can be the last.
Modern tyranny is terror management.
History does not repeat, but it does instruct.
To think what we, as individuals and groups, are doing to influence the political direction of our institutions.
We must defend institutions because they do not protect themselves.
If you see swastikas or other signs of hatred, “do not look away, and do not get used to them. Remove them yourself and set an example for others to do so.”
Authoritarians need obedient civil servants.
It’s easy to follow along. It can seem strange to do or say something different. But without that unease there is no freedom.
Figure things out for yourself. Spend more time with long articles. Subsidize investigative journalism by subscribing to print media.
Time and again, the personal is political, the political is personal.
Simultaneously, I took some break from reading and to some extent, discussing current politics. I missed much of the commentary on Jerusalem, Fire and Fury, elections in Kenya, protests in Iran and much more.
The two months saw the resurfacing of some (negative) escapist tendencies, the fear of rejection, the fear of not being enough. Time to snap out of the autopilot mode and at the same time, leap into a bit of uncertainty.
Joy and happiness. What makes you happy? What gives you joy? Joy captures the state and the feeling more aptly. No?
I had lost much of the zeal about work I started “2017” with. Here’s to being a little more idealistic!
On human connections and impermanence
Are human connections ephemeral? When they are, is there anything wrong with them?
It depends on the relations. some are more fleeting than others. some are meaningful.
Yes and no. Yes, because it’s safer to assume it that way. No, because the fact that we can connect with each other at all is a miracle. I’m so weird that whenever I find someone with slight overlap im already overjoyed.
Not necessarily? But how we live now, (at least for young, global citizens) it seems that the most rational course of life requires fleeting human connection.
2. There are no absolutes
3. Do you believe in soul connection?
Sometimes two humans accidentally show a little bit of their soul to each other
the part of themselves that they so desperately tried to hide
maybe without even noticing and then no matter where they go or who they become, a deep part of them still remembers what the other person’s soul felt like
and that’s the shit you can’t let go of
(for better or for worse)
3a. Family: Sometimes that means you are closed up like a pinecone in the winter, and no amount of shaking is going to let the soul out, and sometimes that means that you try to be closed up but only they know how to pry it out or that you are closed but not really going anywhere and eventually spring comes without you realizing it and maybe family is what stuck around until spring came or caused spring to come or is weather and seasons because sometimes you just got to keep going until you feel the warmth even though you know cold will come again but if you can maybe become a tree before then, then why the hell not?
3b. So what I’m saying is soul connection can be soft and warm and safe, or it can be screaming, lots of screaming, so much that you didn’t even think it was possible to scream this much
4. If you’re a human and you’re connected to yourself, do you last forever? Or do you lose and find yourself over and over again? And then each time you find yourself, do you find the same person, or do you find a stranger, someone new to connect to again? And where did all those other selves go?
5. I guess the connections that are not ephemeral are the ones where you can meet a person’s new self and learn them again and again, and they can learn the yous too, unless somehow you found their soul and/or they found yours and then there isn’t much you can do
but yeah human connections are fleeting
“Is there anything wrong with them?” No they were right when they were and now they no longer are, and so they can not be right or wrong (something can’t be right or wrong if it doesn’t exist, right?)
And I learn. And learn to accept. Impermanence.
About X months ago, a dear friend – the lovely KB – gifted me a notebook. In that notebook, together, we scribbled something. Over a year from then, how much have I progressed? Ever so slightly, but I have nonetheless.
From a Medium post I quite enjoyed:
What we’re really craving is more connecting. And I learn. It is not necessary that I meet more people. Rather, the willingness to connect more to those that I have already met.
Can we connect more than that? Can I ask you what your favourite poem is? What drew you to it? Why you kept it with you? Dare I ask what you did for your birthday last year? What is your spirit animal? Why?
The act of revealing your whole self to someone else and having them reciprocate. I am failing at this. We worship, learn, aid, sing, watch, call, visit, fuck, create, talk, love, try, read and write to bring ourselves closer. To make whole what we lack in the emptiness of loneliness. Each deeper connection creates a deeper character, with more room to grow, more to lose and more to become.
And I learn. To play safe, to play solo, is to play a fool’s game — we may find success in rising above the rest, but we may only win by lifting up others. This requires intimacy. There are no workarounds.
I’ve also been thinking about why I continue to write these. The reasons remain -meditation, practice and memory.